Today I just want to cry. I have so much to do today and I hurt so bad. It's almost 11 and I haven't made it out of bed yet. Thank heaven the puppies must be feeling zonked as well because they're not all over me to be fed. Or maybe hubby fed them when he was downstairs earlier. Who knows?
My neck is incapable of holding my head up. Trying to type this makes waves of achiness roll down from my shoulders to my fingertips. Just the thought of getting up and getting dressed exhausts me. Follow this with the knowledge that I need to pack, oversee my son's packing, finish all the Christmas wrapping and packing, and making sure everything is ready for house sitter and I feel so overwhelmed I have no idea where to start. Although I suppose actually getting out of bed would help. But if I do that, what will hold my head up since my neck isn't up to the job today?
Am I paying the price for doing too much yesterday? I got much accomplished, including being on my feet for three solid hours while I finished shopping. Then I spent several hours wrapping presents while sitting on the floor. I did cheat a little this year and mainly relied on gift bags and decorative boxes, actually wrapping that which was absolutely necessary. I had told hubby and son that I was going to make them help this year but still ended up doing it all myself. Why do I have such an issue with asking or letting them help? Both were willing. But this is something I've always done myself and it's hard to turn it over to someone else, even little bits of it.
Sometimes it seems like no one else in the house will do anything if I'm not doing something. Why is no one else stressed about packing and loading the RV? Why do I always have to be the one to make sure everything gets done? I'm so tired. I just don't know how I'm going to get through everything that needs to be done today.
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